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[theshabbiestofmen]

Later. If you don't mind.

[doggedly]

[He's quiet a moment, and then:]

I'll be back in five minutes, anyways, you can just say then.

[theshabbiestofmen]

Then I'll say then. It's nothing huge, Sirius, don't worry about it.

[doggedly]

Then you'd think you'd be able to just say it.

[But, anyways. About ten minutes later and he does come back to the room, shrugging off his jacket and slumping onto his bed face-first, with a huge sigh. After a moment, he turns his head to look for Remus.]

Hullo.

[theshabbiestofmen]

Hi.

[He'd been reading restlessly; his book is tossed on his bed-- and now he rolls to his side, considering Sirius.]

Tired, then?

[doggedly]

Terribly.

[He cocks his head at Remus, trying to catch sight of that book.]

What's that you're reading?

[theshabbiestofmen]

Something about civil wars. I don't know, it's boring. What are you tired from?

[doggedly]

This bloody ship. Not being ill anymore. Climbing trees. Thinking really hard. Harassing people. So, the usual, really.

[He presses his face against his pillow for a moment again, then twists back to look at Remus once more.]

So what is it?

[theshabbiestofmen]

[It feels girlish, acting like this, confiding his worries in Sirius-- but only a little. Not enough to stop him from staring over at his friend and murmuring:]

Raven. In short. Her latest post.

[doggedly]

[And at that, he shoves himself up onto his elbows, watching Remus closely.]

What about her?

[theshabbiestofmen]

I'm scared she'll do something rash. Something irresponsible, just because she's jumping at the bit for action. And I sympathize, I do, but . . . I just don't think there's anyone out there.

[doggedly]

But we don't know that. I mean-- you can't blame her for it.

[Though he's still studying Remus closely even as he says that.]

[theshabbiestofmen]

I don't . . . I don't blame her, per se. I just-- I wish she'd think about it more.

[He meets Sirius' eyes.]

And we do know that. Why else would we go to the Jump chamber every month unless we knew it was fatal?

[doggedly]

So it's fatal. But that doesn't mean-- I dunno. That there's only one Jump chamber. What if there's loads of them, or some other way to avoid it--there's loads of possibilities.

[A pause.]

Is she going out there?

[theshabbiestofmen]

Yes. And I'm going with her.

[doggedly]

[Immediately, his face darkens--just a little, but Remus knows him well; he'll be able to recognise it.]

When?

[theshabbiestofmen]

Whenever she wants.

[doggedly]

But she hasn't said yet.

[And then, not even waiting for an answer to that, he goes on:] You don't want to?

[theshabbiestofmen]

I think it's a surefire way for us to get seriously hurt-- but I'm not leaving her to do it on her own.

[doggedly]

Then I'll go as well.

[theshabbiestofmen]

You don't have to. That wasn't what this was about.

[doggedly]

Yeah, well, I'm going to. As if I'd let you go off on your own, don't be stupid.

[He says it all brusquely, but he looks around at Remus with more sharpness straight after that.]

What was it about, if that wasn't it?

[theshabbiestofmen]

Just-- my worries, I suppose. My-- god.

[He purses his lips.]

Does it make me a coward, then, that I don't want her to go?

[doggedly]

[He smiles, thinly, and gives a little shrug.]

Think it makes you her boyfriend, actually.

[theshabbiestofmen]

'S normal, then?