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[majestyofthethrone]

[She shakes her head]

When you meet Him, you know.

[theshabbiestofmen]

When?

[majestyofthethrone]

[There's a quiet pause.]

If you stay friends with me, it'll probably happen sooner or later.

[theshabbiestofmen]

How-- how do you mean?

[majestyofthethrone]

Sometimes He takes over.

[She makes a little gesture, like driving. He takes the wheel.]

[theshabbiestofmen]

Jesus.

[A beat, and he gives a nervous little laugh.]

Don't tell me he's in there too.

[majestyofthethrone]

[She shakes her head at that - no, no, he's not.]

I can't tell Sirius.

[theshabbiestofmen]

Why not? He'd understand. Or, well, he might not, I don't know if I understand-- but he'd be sympathetic.

[majestyofthethrone]

[She's quiet for a moment]

He'd sympathize. And then he would go to kiss me, and he would think, no, wait, is this her, or is it God, God is in this body, there's something else here, and he wouldn't

[She erases that and tries not to think of Adam, who found out, and refused to touch her after. Her touch (no, His touch, His), once, restored his sight, for a few minutes. And he saw her and told her she was beautiful but he couldn't, it changed things.

She didn't even like him all that much, but he made her feel real, in those moments after she lost her voice. He told her it was because he couldn't see anymore]

I've been through this before.

[theshabbiestofmen]

[He glances over at her, quiet and serious.]

I . . . can't promise that won't happen. But if you asked me, I'd tell you that no, no it wouldn't happen like that.

[He stretches out his arm. It's covered in scars, little and large, white and savagely applied.]

Most people won't even touch a werewolf, as if they might catch the disease by proximity. But Sirius has never worried about that. We've shared beds; he's fallen asleep on top of me. He grabs me and wrestles me and after the full moon is over he gets my clothes and carries me back to a bed. He . . . he doesn't care about that sort of thing. And I truly don't think he'd stop liking you because of this.

[majestyofthethrone]

[She reaches for him and hugs him - she doesn't like to touch people, she doesn't do it often, not with people she doesn't trust, but she does it then, she just reaches out and holds on.]

[theshabbiestofmen]

[He jumps a little, startled by that sudden touch, and nearly pulls away-- but he likes it, he likes the simple platonic contact, and he curls into it after a moment.]

I'm all right. Truly I am.

[majestyofthethrone]

[She nods into his shoulder and pulls away. Because they're similar, the two of them. They both have things they hide, that they're ostracized for, but Remus handles it so much better than she does.]

I hope so. You deserve to be.

GOD MICI YOU'RE SO STUPID

[theshabbiestofmen]

And you as well. You know that, don't you?

I KNOW RIGHT

[majestyofthethrone]

[She nods, once, because that's what you're supposed to do, when someone doesn't know the inside corners of the bad things you've done, and looks around]

You can use as many pillows as you like. I won't even mind if you crawl in the bed, really, I don't sleep well so sometimes having someone there helps, but if you don't feel comfortable, that's all right too.

[theshabbiestofmen]

I think Sirius might actually kill me if he found us in a bed together, no matter how platonic our intentions. But I'll take a pillow or three, thank you.

[majestyofthethrone]

[She laughs, then, at the image, although naturally there's no noise.]

Move whatever you like around.

[theshabbiestofmen]

[He does, thank you, arranging a rather flat pillow for his head, coupled with quite a few fluffy ones put together to form a mattress.]

Thank you again for the, ah, shelter.

[majestyofthethrone]

[She squeezes his hand - you're welcome - before she crawls into her bed.]