[She decides, there, that whatever this is, she'll be as candid as possible. It's easy not to be, when every word you express has to be written down on a slate the size of an iPad, but she looks around for a piece of paper and a pen, and writes for what seems like a long time.
And then she hands it to Remus.]
I'm not always very good with dealing with scary things. I'm not very brave, and the other day I got really scared - it was hard to be sad when I'm so afraid, but I thought, I thought well, it would be okay, if I got so scared I couldn't think I could just go to Sirius and he would help, right?
Because even if I don't want to be clingy I am. I don't have anyone here from home, none of my friends or my brother or even my dog and people have been kind to me but sometimes you just want to know that you can hide with someone and they'll hold onto you even though you feel small and weak and terrified. I didn't know it was just a joke. I thought it was something awful.
I didn't know he would come back
Where I'm from when you die you're dead and that's it
and I was scared and it was just a joke, and yesterday I saw Sirius and I made him a frittata and I didn't tell him how scared I was because I thought that I needed to be brave but now I'm just upset.
[She hasn't slept in 45 hours and she just leans her head down so it's on her knees.]
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And then she hands it to Remus.]
I'm not always very good with dealing with scary things. I'm not very brave, and the other day I got really scared - it was hard to be sad when I'm so afraid, but I thought, I thought well, it would be okay, if I got so scared I couldn't think I could just go to Sirius and he would help, right?
Because even if I don't want to be clingy I am. I don't have anyone here from home, none of my friends or my brother or even my dog and people have been kind to me but sometimes you just want to know that you can hide with someone and they'll hold onto you even though you feel small and weak and terrified. I didn't know it was just a joke. I thought it was something awful.
I didn't know he would come back
Where I'm from when you die you're dead and that's it
and I was scared and it was just a joke, and yesterday I saw Sirius and I made him a frittata and I didn't tell him how scared I was because I thought that I needed to be brave but now I'm just upset.
[She hasn't slept in 45 hours and she just leans her head down so it's on her knees.]